For the past two weeks I have not had more then an hour sleep at a time. I sleep for an hour then I’m awake for an hour struggling to get back to sleep, the pattern has kept repeating over and over for the past two weeks. It’s wearing me out….. I have fallen behind with all my readings and task that I have set out to achieve. This is the reason why this post is two weeks late and is combined into two weeks of blogs.
I finally decided that I would have my quiet day this last Saturday.I started Friday night and finished it Sunday Morning. My objective was to try and find out what was going on with me. I felt that I was making the progress with my self discovery. I felt great confident, secure and my thoughts were clear. Then all of sudden it seem to just stop!!!!!!! What was going on? I needed to get back on track with my life purpose.
So I decided to start over. I re-wrote my DMP change things around and removed a few things. Updated my index cards. Organized my folders cleared out all the clutter. In the process it all hit me, what I had been doing for the past two weeks. I was living in the grey area of life again. Not seeing things as black and white as they are. Not having True Health and Autonomy in my life. I was going through the motions, reading sometimes, sitting quiet only when it was convenient, most of all I did not do anything with emotion behind it. I had to stop it all and start over, I imagine that the Master Key will be part of my life from now on and that I will be starting over all the time. I will be just getting better every time that I do start over. It’s like an alcoholic, will say once you get a head full of AA you can never forget it unless you drink yourself do death. I know have a head full of MK and I have but no choice to learn more and be better observer in life then I was before today. Today I have started over with reading and reset my emotions and have given myself permission to be human and move on.
Thank You MK